“What Happens If It Works”, has been popping up on my Instagram feed a lot over the last several weeks. I take this as God’s message to me to get my act together and start writing again. The first step to starting something new or re-starting a previous practice is SO HARD. At least for me it is. It is a palpable battle of will, emotion and action.
So, what happens if it works? If it works, I’ll be successfully blogging with a goal of turning my musings into a book. What happens if it works? My highs, lows, and plateaus just might help someone from my experiences. What happens if it works? My writing will have touched at least one person.
It’s been more than a minute since I’ve last blogged. To level set and play a little catch up, at the end of 2017 someone very close to me was diagnosed with cancer and successfully defeated cancer in 2018 after an unbelievably long hospital stay. Shortly after that, I “resigned” from a job I did not love, went to Africa with my husband, gained some clarity and proceeded to start my own law firm. While starting the firm, I was approached by a big law firm about joining their firm. I was trained at a tough law firm and didn’t really think that’s where I wanted to be. Well, after praying and consulting with a few key people, I interviewed and then accepted an offer two weeks later.
It goes without saying that 2018 was a year full of lows, highs and uncertainty. What I know for sure about 2018 is that God’s hand was on me the entire time. Every. Single. Moment. Without. Fail. That’s the truth. I saw things unfold that I didn’t even know I wanted, people removed from my life that were toxic, and opportunities I dreamed about 10 years ago come to be.
So again I ask, what happens if it works? If you take the step with even the smallest amount of faith to find out, you’ll be moving in the direction you were meant to. Is it easy? Nope. Not even a little bit easy. But is it worth it? You already know it is.
2019 is half-way over, but as the ever wise one, Beyonce sings in her new song (and one of my two theme songs), “Find Your Back”, “…don’t let this world drive you crazy, find your way back…you’ve just got to find your way back.” Well. Slowly but surely, I’m finding my way back to find out what happens if it works.
I’m not sure what your “it” is, but let’s find out what happens if “it” works together.
Love you,
Farah
My Inner Sanctuary 